hey ppl....here to write again....recently broke up with shermaine....really a blow to me.....it was no ones fault....but if u say it has to be someones fault , then i would say its me....
ii do admit i wasnt really a good boyfriend to her, didnt spend enough time talking to her....thats what she wants, maybe?...
but i have been single for such a long time....been a lone wolf a long time....i just cant get use to it
...she didnt wanna break up, but in the end we decide we should go our separate ways....i couldnt bear the pain so does she....
even if we broke up , i will be the boy u once knew before we got together....
she is the first girl that i ever kissed....she is kind to me, and i took it for granted....perhaps...
i still wanna be good friends with her...i really do.....
but......
i heard rumors that she is back with her ex,i asked her , she don seem like she wanna say anything, and said i was afraid she have a new boyfriend....awww come on i just wanna know that u r at least with someone better than me.....
the moment she said that she is going out to drink with her friends, i had a version of my aunt...really bad impression...and wat is with that tone u gave me? when i called to check whether u r safe or not?....awww come on....u r not the girl i used to know....
there are some other side reasons, y i think a break up was a good idea....
1) too many guys is after her
2) this jay guy? wats the idea of being so close to her when he already have a gf?....i dont know, it makes me feel he is her bf than i m.....
3)i m not a psychic, i cant read ur mind girl, how am i supposed to know when u r bored or lonely? thought u had all those guys chasing after u? jay? keith?dino?
4)expecting my calls?....girl, i exploded my bills for u, last month and almost got myself killed.....
5) u said u r a playgirl that need a good boy?....ouch, in the face...that explains all the boys coming to u....
i dont mean to be a totally douche bag...but i have been containing wrath inside of me ....the moment u used that tone on me girl,that cold ungrateful tone, u had it coming girl....
its her birthday this sat, i wanna do something for her....like wat she did for me.....but since i assume she is with someone already, i guess i will leave them be, i don wish to be the third party like those guys were when we were together...
but still....i do still love her...the shermaine i used to know.....
so this song is for her
thank you so much for the good times......
Wrote down my thoughts @ 8:36 AM.
hey ppl, good to be back blogging....sooo....the holidays have started as u know, houseworks as usual....cooking cleaning , farming.....running errands here and there?...went out with my mom for breakfast then get the bus tickets for my dad....hmmmmm i m kinda excited going back to Singapore on the 21th Dec....woooohoooooo.... Singapore i miss u soooo much!!! i miss my friends there the food there, the air there, the music of life there ....:)...and the smell of safety....
but the bad thing is that i wont be able to text or communicate with shermaine....:(...lol....maybe we need to take a break....kinda struggling to keep our relationship afloat , i know that maintaining this relationship wont be fruitful....after all, i have to left her for Aussie....what my sis said was right....but she is the girl that has been so nice to me, and i dont wanna lose her......i do doubt my mature thinking sometimes....i just dont know what is right and what is wrong now.....but i do miss her a lot.....
anyway , i really love my new blog skin.its cool, emo and anime-ish....XD....hahaha
thats for all folks, enjoy the music.....:)
Wrote down my thoughts @ 5:44 AM.
so hey ppl, i m back , soeey didnt really update this blog lately, was have the finals , so i wasnt free,
but hey who cares, i m back rite? hahaha
a lot happened lately , don really wanna list the bad things that had happened to me...
hahaha, but i wanna say thanks to my dearest shermaine:), i mean again,....for the birthday cake she give me on my 17 birthday...:) it really sweet of her :)....since it the holidays now , i knida miss school,my friends, hahhahaha maybe the school ? hahah the one i miss the most is my shermaine....:) miss hanging out with her , studying with her ,chatting with her ....but is alrite one month isnt that bad rite?....i have got through 6 months of housework and farming life ,wat is 1 month to me ?:) hahaha...
kinda worried for my finals result ....but cant do much now rite?....so just gonna hope for the best i guess :)
thats alll for tonight folks ....ciao :)
Wrote down my thoughts @ 7:59 AM.
